Impossible goals and real life

This is a bit of an experiment in writing style. I have heard of but not yet read a book by James Joyce(?) where it is all the thoughts or mental chatter that happens in the mind of a man for a single day. If you know the name of the book please let me know its name. (Edit Ulysses)

What is it about dreams, hopes, wishes and possibly careers that have some (Me!) aiming so high, (Curse my brain because it just said now write, ‘beyond the sky!’), as I was saying before I was rudely interrupted, aiming so high that the desire, though attractive, also becomes a thousand kilogram weight upon the mind.

What has this to do with real life? You may well ask! (Not that you asked it because I asked it, but then maybe you did ask it before I wrote it or agreed that a person should be asking this question, so perhaps a brain like what I have [yes it is deliberate bad grammar] is really a curse (or is that cur as in a reference to a dog, "hey dog brain get on with it", groan, I thought brains were supposed to help you not hinder you.)

Well real life hinders dreams. You start to build up a series of arguments that will reveal universal understanding, peace and, pause for dramatic effect, and, another pause for amusement for my alter ego or is that my brains part, "I need a wee wee", yes body just one sec, "I REALLY NEED A WEE WEE", drat and double drat, now I forgotten how I got to.....,(imagine that you now hear the sound of pouring water) "A h h h h h, thank you", well that was a relief! Well how can I concentrate with my body making all that painful noise? Now what were those arguments? Stare into this thing I call a brain and find a solid wall of deep black silence. (Real life pause, change of style as I come back to finish this off, kill it and publish (sound of mad laughter!)

Big dreams mean never giving up. Every failure is a step towards success. This also means that on a personal level you believe in yourself. You believe that what you are doing is the exact right thing for you. Giving up must in effect be your inner determined core saying that giving up is the right thing to do. As a human being, or a bag of water with a few elements thrown in to make things interesting, in the moment, the now, the present you are the teacher of your evolution. All the humans that preceded you and all the energy that went into bringing your awareness to bring you to this word this blog, these concepts are all part of your personal development.

The positive optimist at this point will be 'like yeah, so what' the person who looks back and learns nothing from their past will be mentally saying "yeah, but you don't understand my life". Here is the point, you and all your, predecessors must have been successful enough to bring you to this moment of awareness and life. So by just reading this blog means that no matter how you feel about your environment now, your life now, what your work now that bag of water your consciousness occupies got to here and now through success. Your past could not have been a failure. There were just things that happened that said, the idea you just had was not accurate enough to fit the patterns around you.

I suppose one way of looking at this would be to say every second you are alive is another second of success for the structure you occupy. Now here is the question. What is it that makes this survival possible? I suppose most would answer the brain or our nervous system. My biology teacher would have pointed out that the Hydra is possibly immortal barring accidents, like being eaten. Single celled organisms like paramecium have no recognisable nervous system, yet the cilia that help them be mobile work together. My Ecology teacher would point out that we live in a closed system and are dependant on the biology of that system to supply us with food. (A side thought, parameciums also have a sex life!)